B ~ Bastusan Tayo!

We have a very unusual childhood.

I am pertaining to myself and a few of my cousins on my maternal side. We had this activity wherein we imitate adults by playing with romance (or sex, to put it bluntly). Oftentimes, we do this right after playing house (bahay-bahayan, in Tagalog). It was like the second act in a stage play. We were still very young, I haven't even reached 2nd grade yet. Imagine it like an orgy, only with kids. I would be lying if I say that we were sweet and innocent little children.

Naturally, there are no penetration involved. Only dry humping and some oral sex. And we don't strip down to our birthday suits. We just get on top of another and starts to dry hump, and moan like what we think the adults do when doing the nasty deed. I am not sure what kind of satisfaction do we get from it, and if up to what point do we hump since we can't ejaculate yet. We also do some dirty talking, only sans the curses. It is a sin for children to curse, isn't it?

Regarding the oral sex, my memory is slightly hazy. I can't recall if our girl cousins ever give us guys a blow job, but I remember that we do lick their pussies. Yes, that is correct, as much as I would like to cringe every time I think of it. I already had a taste of a vajayjay, and it was my cousin's! Brrrrrrrr! Call it like a greek tragedy or something, and I know I didn't enjoy it, unlike Karl who was like a maniac shoving his face down Yuna's girly bits; he vomited because of it! It was funny seeing that back then, but it was funnier now when I think about it. My cousin did get off successfully, only through the wrong head, ejaculating his dinner of omelette out of his mouth. And we were busted because of that incident! We were gravely punished by our parents, but that still didn't stop us from repeating.

I am the one who often invites them into playing this; it was usually my idea. Yes, I was a naughty kid. I dunno how we end it though, maybe like normal children who just stops playing because they are already fed up with a toy or a game, but I know we got caught twice. Once because of Karl and the other because someone told on us. Until now, I still have no idea who betrayed us.

We always do it in one of the rooms upstairs in our grandparents' house, but not on a regular basis; only when the grownups are out of the house or when they are busy with a party downstairs. I pity them because they had no idea about all the activities that went on.

Now, I still don't have an idea I am gay that time, though I preferred watching my male cousins more than doing my female cousins. I usually invites the boys first, then they will ask the girls. Eventually, we stopped doing it. One of the reasons was because I left Metro Manila and started living in the province when I was 7 years old; the instigator was gone. And every time I visit my cousins, I don't invite them anymore. I am sure they never do it without me; they are not as gutsy and horny to initiate the deed, like me. 

However, I had some continuous sexual activities with my 2 male cousins: Jude and his older brother, Kuya Matthew. "Geosef, you slut!" you might exclaim, but no, I didn't have sex with them together at the same time; it was never a threesome. I had separate taboo activities with the 2 of them. And these helped in the development of my homosexuality. What I had with Jude and Kuya Matthew weren't limited to dry humping only, but I will tell you that in another story. *wink*

How do we interact with each other nowadays? Pretty normal, I guess. It seems like nothing incestuous has ever happened in the past, but I know my cousins only have these memories buried in the deepest and darkest recesses of their minds. We never brought it up again, of course. It is not an advisable conversation topic and it would be extremely awkward and humiliating to mention. Well, who in their right mind would even dare? "Hey Yuna, remember when Karl slurped your beaver like there's no tomorrow? He threw up because of that! Funny right?" And then, a slap in the face and a kick in the nuts comes after.

Oh, and we had a name for this! We called it 'Bastusan'. Used like, "Tara, bastusan tayo!"