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Saturday, August 2, 2014

Letter Break 11 ~ One Less Thing To Write About

Did you know that I hate writing?

For me, it has always been an irritating chore. I prefer sharing a story using my mouth rather than my hands. Like in sex.

Back when I was still a student, whenever my teacher says, "Ok, get one whole sheet of paper. May test tayo, essay," expect that my groans are one of the loudest in the room. I would rather have an oral recitation instead of that shitty excuse for a quiz. On test papers during quarterly exams, I get cranky whenever I see words such as 'explain', 'compare and contrast', 'discuss', 'expound', 'describe', and the likes. Why couldn't it be matching type, the easiest of them all?

I just find writing too tiresome; it requires so much time and effort. Aside from the complex rules of grammar, you also have to mind your tone, vocabulary, and diction. A large amount of brain cells must be exhausted in a single task alone. You are already aware about the degree of AJ's laziness, right? And if you include Joan's obsessive-compulsive behavior in the mix, then a halfhearted work just won't do.

Aside from me being a sloth, I am also left-handed. Believe me, it's twice as hard writing from left to right using the left hand, especially if the notebook you're using is a spiral-type and your armchair was designed to be used by a right-handed person. It becomes so frustrating that you'll constantly curse your brain for its right-dominance. And then there are the worse things, such as having ink stains or lead marks on the side of your palm after using a ballpoint pen or pencil, or getting your work messy when your hand slides over it. These grind my gears every time without fail.

Anyway, you might be wondering now. If that's the case, then how did I become a blogger? What caused me to become one?

In celebration of ADMV's 1st anniversary, let me share with you my humble beginnings.

It all started around May of 2013. I was at work, bored and with nothing else to do. Well, we all know that boredom could bring forth sinful things, so I craved for what I'm especially fond of: gay porn. One quick Google search, andvoila!—countless webpages appeared right in front of my eyes, all for my heart's content. After getting tired of drooling at pictures of sweaty, naked, muscular men, I switched to online LGBT articles, and lastly into erotica. I hopped through various blogs, from Manila Gay Guy to Mandaya Moore, from Discreet Manila to Ms. Chuniverse, and a handful more of others.

There was this one blog though, that made me stay. It was McVie's.

McVie's tales of bathhouse adventures greatly piqued my interest. His writing style was unpretentious and easy to read; his experiences, unique and engaging; and his views were profound as well as thought-provoking. After starting his blog on January of 2004, he had already accumulated a lot of readers, signifying that he is no ordinary blogger. It made me more curious about who he is as a homosexual, so I decided to dig deeper. His blog is made up 'seasons', divided into 5 separate blogs, and is currently on its 13th run. He calls it 'The McVie Show'. In a span of 2 1/2 months, I have read all of his post, from Season 1 up to the latest. It was no easy feat, I tell you, but it was nevertheless enjoyable.

He had influenced me with his stories. I was able to relate to him, to feel his emotions and understand the meaning behind his words. In a way, I idolized him; I had this burning desire to be like him.

And then, an epiphany presented itself.

I realized that I, too, have experiences worth sharing; stories containing important lessons which must no longer be kept hidden. I wanted to touch the lives of others just like how McVie touched mine. Call it melodramatic, but it's the truth. At first, I wasn't sure how to execute it for Literature isn't really my forte—I took Nursing, for God's sake—but I was determined to push through.

I wanted to own a blog that could offer something new and different in terms of format, if not of content. I wanted it to feature accounts of my not-so-innocent experiences in steamy and titillating ways, while keeping them relatable and inspiring at the same time. I wanted my life to be immortalized somehow. Hence, Alfabeto Della Mia Vita was born, and my life as an anonymous blogger has begun.

I consolidated 26 stories from my childhood up to the present, assigning each to a letter of the alphabet, with several more stories serving as a break between the major ones. Then, I drafted myself a strict schedule indicating the specific publish dates of each post, which I found something extremely difficult to follow considering that I'm not really a professional writer. Fortunately, with the encouragement Ace was constantly giving me, I was able to handle everything pretty well.

I envisioned ADMV to be a miniature novel, and I intended to discontinue writing after I finished the last letter. That was actually my initial plan, until I realized an important thing.

I no longer want to stop.

The truth is, I expected myself to give up halfway. I thought that it's just an obsession I should start immersing myself into, which sooner or later, I would no longer have the desire to fulfill. But I was wrong. I never thought that I would enjoy doing it. I could say that I was even quite surprised when I realized that.

I consider myself extremely lucky for my efforts were recognized early on. I was successful in catching the attention of several amazing bloggers namely FSOQNomadSethSenyor IskwaterKCAmbot, and JM. With their positive feedbacks and supportive comments, I was inspired to do more, to give my 100% in each and every entry I write. In a span of one year, I was also able to connect with so many interesting bloggers, such as GlentotCeibohMac CallisterSpaceKuya RamilGillboardSir OPSimonZaiMr. Tripster, the lovers Jjampong and VicJeki Merlin, Daniel, and Froi Dencio to name a few. I was blessed to have met in person a handful of wonderful bloggers as well, such as YccosArchievinerMamonJeiKulapitotJuneRixCher JonathanMark PatatasFiel-kunBino, and Axl. Also worthy of mention are the silent and anonymous readers who spend time every now and then in making their presence felt, such as John, Jo, Ren, and the Anon who's desperate to be raped.

If not for you guys, I won't be able to last this long. I owe you so much, the numerous pageviews and comments. I hope you were able to learn something from me as much as I learned a lot from you. I discovered a whole new incredible realm in the form of the blogosphere. Here's to another year of good and fruitful stories.

Truly, there is joy in writing.

51 comments:

  1. Happy Anniversary to your blog. Yes, McVie's a pillar in these spaces. :) He was already here when most of us were still readers.

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    1. And just so you know, Sep, your blog too, is an inspiration. Keep writing!

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    2. Thank you so much, JM! I will! :D

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  2. Hi sep! Maligayang anibersaryo sa espasyo mo. Lagi ako nagbabasa. Di lang nagkokomento madalas. Di ko rin kasi alam ang sasabihin. Haha.

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    1. Maraming salamat, Sir OP! Wag po kayo mag-alala, naiintindihan ko po yun. :)

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  3. maligayang kaarawan sa'yong blog, sepsep! pa-sep sep ka naman. charms!

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    1. Thanks Nyora! *hihi* Beso-beso na lang, pwede?

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  4. Noong ako naman ay estudyante, mas gusto ko ang mga essay type of test. Mas nakakapag-isip kasi ako ng isasagot, saka ligtas mula sa mga mangongopya hahaha. (tinatanong? lols)

    Left-handed din ako! Nakaka-relate ako sa spiral notebook na yan hehehe, saka yung mantsa ng tinta sa kamay kapag nagsusulat!

    Happy Anniversary sa iyong blog :) Nakakatuwang basahin kung paano nabuo at patuloy na nabubuhay ang iyong blog. Ramdam ko yung kakaibang saya na dulot sa iyo ng blogging/pagsusulat habang binabasa ko ang blogpost mo na ito. :)

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    1. There are two kinds of students, those who likes essays and those who are not. LOL Ano daw?

      Uy! Salot talaga sa'tin ang mga spiral notebooks no? At palagi akong mukhang dugyot dahil sa tinta na yan. *huhu*

      Thanks Jep! I'm very happy. :)

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  5. Happy Blogsary! Wow 1 yr ka na. more more more!!!!! -mula sa poging cute na Patatas

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    1. Salamat Patatas. *hehe* Bigla tuloy ako nag-crave ng mashed potato.

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  6. Happy anniversary sayong blog! You are really a good writer. Paminsan minsan ako bumibisita, nagbabasa at paminsan minsan nag comment. Wala ako masabi minsan. At the same time, pinagpapawisan ako dun sa iba mong post. ahahaha! May pagka inosente pa ako kaya hindi ko minsan matapos basahin yung ibang maiinit na entries.

    but anyway, i really hope na magpatuloy ka sa pagsulat. Para sa akin, anuman ang genre mo ang mahalaga ay nagpapatuloy ang marami sa pagsulat at sa pagpapayaman ng bagong sub-culture na ito.

    We are bloggers. We are writers. Whether Grammar Nazi or Jejenese, we are the new breed of writers. We are weaver of words. We destroy worlds and myths with words. We create legends and lores of things that were, that are, and that are yet to come. We can captivate hearts and minds, make people dream and fulfill their fantasies, until they are at our mercy.

    As a blogger I sometimes feel that I am a pandora box. Open me and you'll release the chaos from the depths of my heart- all the rage and fury, the love and joy, encapsulated in my stories.

    Tulad mo rin. Anyway, I hope you'll be more inspired, and hopefully mabasa ko ng tuluyan ang mga future entries na hindi pinagpapawisan at nauubusan ng hininga. hahahaha!

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    1. Thank you very much, Mr. T! Pasensya na po sa karamihan ng mga kwento ko. Sadyang ganyan lamang po ang aking buhay. *hehehe*

      Tama, I will continue writing in the hope of inspiring more people, particularly the youth of the LGBT community. :)

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    2. it's LGBTQ na!!!! Queer for those who are still confused...Hehehe Pero hindi ako queer ah! Babae po ako! Lol

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    3. Malapit ka nang mapabilang sa 'Queer'. *hihihi*

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  7. woot! Happy Anniversary Babysep :D I dunno where our friendship had started, but I'm happy it did happen. Hahaha. You see, I have someone to ask for art favors in class and checking papers sometimes too.

    It must be the girlie-girlie hearts that made us close. Hehe.

    Thank you for being you.

    Continue writing not for anybody else but yourself. It is a way to reflect on our lives. It's a good way to laugh and smile during bad days. It is a good reminder that no matter how life sucks, it is still good after all because we get to read our past and see what had become of us. Labyu!

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    1. User-friendly! *hahaha* Sabagay, napapakinabangan din naman kita.

      Ang harsh lang? LOL

      I'm very thankful na naging friends tayo, hindi lang sa blog, kundi pati IRL. You're one of a kind, Babykat. :)

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  8. We write with a purpose. Keep on writing to inspire.

    Happy Anniversary!

    P.S. I am left-handed too!

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    1. Thanks Guyrony! I will!

      Someday, we left-handers will rule the world. LOL

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  9. Happy first year! Salamat napabilang ako sa mga interesting LOL. Yung nabanggit mong Mandaya Moore at Chuniverse, SUPER ALIW yan!

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    1. Salamat idol! Actually, kabilang ka din dun sa mga 'wonderful' na na-meet ko na. :)

      Oo nga, andami kong tawa sa mga yan; magkaka-level kayo pagdating sa pagsusulat ng humor.

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  10. naks! kasama ako sa special mention :) happy anniversary!

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    1. Siyempre! Makakalimutan ko ba naman ang nangungunang bottom sa puso't isip ko? *hahaha*

      Maraming salamat Seth! *smooch!*

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  11. coolness! haha kilig much.

    happy anniversary sa isa sa aking fave bloggers. :)

    and alam mo ba, panaka-naka na lang ang post ko sa blog ko...
    until i stumbled upon your blog. :)

    you, too.. isa kang inspirasyon. :)

    salamat sa'yo! hehe :)

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    1. Walang anuman KC. Maraming salamat rin! :)

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  12. ps

    fave ko ang essay bata pa lang ako!!!! haha kasi pwedeng magpaligoy ligoy at magpalabok para makakuha ng mataas na grade. bwahaha

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    1. Masyado akong tamad para magpaligoy-ligoy. Gusto ko diretsahan na agad. *hahahaha*

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  13. Happy birthday, este Happy Anniversary sa blog mo Sep. Hindi ko maalala kung kelan ako napadpad dito pero alam ko na gusto ko ang writing style mo.


    Siguro nga ganun no? nagsisimula sa pagsulat ng essays nung kabataan mo pa (though somewhat contrary to your part) ang pagsusulat ng kung anu-ano sa later part ng buhay mo.

    anyway namention ako oh.haha! biglang naglakihan yung mga alon sa dagat. You're an interesting writer. Siguro mas pa sa pagkukwento.hehe

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    1. Thanks Froi! Kinilig naman ako. *hihi* Pwede bang pa-hug rin?

      Siguro karamihan ng bloggers ay hilig talaga ang pagsusulat. Pero ako, this is something na late ko na lang na-discover. :)

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  14. Interesting? Ako? Really? Sige na nga.
    Maligayang anibersayo sa iyong blog. Alam namin may talent ka sa pagsusulat at lalo pang nahasa ito thru blogging, kung ano ang iksi ng panahon mo sa blogosphere ay siya namang bilis mong maka-gain ng friends, ako – hindi ko nagawa ‘yan at isa lang ang ibig sabihin nun friendly ka unlike me, hehe.

    ‘Yung board exam namin essay. Kahit hindi ako napakahusay sa English naipasa ko ‘yun kahit papaano, mas madali sana kung multiple choice pero sa ganong tema ‘pag mali ka na, mali ka na ‘di tulad sa essay basta makuha mo ang kiliti ng examiner may points ka. Dahil dun nagpapasalamat ako dahil sa essay.

    Sa pagtagal mo pa sa pagsusulat, babasahin mo ulit ‘yung mga lumang post mo (sigurado ‘yun) tapos mapapangiti ka sa mga dating ginawa mo kahit walang dahilan, dahil eventually may magbabago sa ‘yo, hindi ko alam kung ano – basta. Marami ka pang makikilala magiging kaibigan at magiging critic na posibleng sagad sa buto ang pagiging salbahe, lahat ng mga ‘yan ay makakatulong sa ‘yo para magtagal pa sa pagsulat at sa pagmamature mo bilang kabilang sa LGBT community.

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    1. Maraming salamat, Kuya Ramil! Nakakataba ng heart ang mga ganitong comments. :)

      Juice ko, kung essay ang board exam ng Nursing, baka hindi pa rin ako pumapasa hanggang ngayon. *hahaha*

      Tama, balang araw, magre-reflect ako ng bonggang-bongga. I'll look back to see the path I've laid after me. *hehe* Yung new acquaintances and friends, go na go ako diyan. Pero yung evil critics, kahit wag na, though for sure di naman maiiwasan ang mga yan. Fortunately, wala pa sila for now. :)

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  15. whoa! Na-mention ako (kung ako man ung John dito LOL) Thanks! And thank you din sa pag-continue sa pag susulat. John :)

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    1. Yep, siyempre naman ikaw yun. Wala namang iba eh, ikaw lang sa puso ko. *hihihi*

      Thanks for sticking around, John! :)

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  16. uy, may special mention!!! maraming salamat at maligayang kaarawan sa iyong tahanan dito sa mundo ng blogging. nawa'y magtagal pa ang iyong pamamalagi dito!!!

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    1. Opkors! Ang mga espesyal na bloggers sa puso kong virgin pa. *hahahaha*

      Maraming salamat, Papa Gillboard! Palaro naman ng PS4. Lels. :)

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  17. Wooot!? Happy Anniversary dito sa iyong walang ka-mali-malisya, mahinhin at walang bahid-dungis na blog, Sep!!! *evil grin 2xxx ^___^v

    Just continue lang with your passion in writing. Oh diba, naka isang taon ka na at marami pang taon na susunod jan.

    Glad to have met you, online and in person too!
    Thanks sa special mention :))

    *throws confetti*

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    1. *hahaha* You give me too much credit sa pagigin good boy, Fiel-kun.
      Maraming salamat kaibigan! :)

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  18. You inspire people, especially those who shares your belief that there is joy in writing. And although I maybe new to the blogosphere, me being inspired by your blog is enough proof that you should start giving more credits to your talent than you usually do. Always put your heart in things that makes you happy. :)

    Here's to more years of your best stories EVER! :)


    —Brent

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    1. Doing what I do, I expect nothing more than to enjoy my time.
      Thank you very much for the kind words, Brent! You made my day. :D

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  19. Oy, anibersaryo pala ng blog mo ha.
    Congratulations pala +Sep! Sana mas mangibabaw pa ang persona ni Geosef alang-alang for the literature matters and to inspire your readers para magtagal ang ADMV tulad ng iba sa blogging industry.
    And again, I would like to extend my 'congrats' to you and to your blog.
    More power! ^_^
    - jay

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    1. Yun din ang lagi kong hiling. :)
      Maraming salamat Jay!

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  20. Yay! Happy anniversary to your blog, Sep. Keep them coming. :)

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  21. Happy Blogiversary!

    Keep writing. Someday, you may not expect, with a streak of luck, a publisher might approach you & may end up on publishing your very own book - collected stories of ADMV. Nice!

    Literateknolohitura

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    1. Though that is one nice thought, I don't expect something like that to happen. I just don't see myself as an author of a book worthy to be published. *hahaha*

      But thanks Mr. Litarantadodist! Let's keep Literature alive! :)

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  22. tagal kong di nakapagbasa sa blog mo! :)

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    1. Hi Jorge! Kelan pa 'yung huli mong bisita dito? Welcome back then! :)

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  23. sikat ka pala ah :) hihi. eniweys, salamat sa pagdaan sa pautot na blog ko. pag may time magbabackread ako dito.

    happy blog anniversary.

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    1. Thank you!

      Hindi po, isang hamak na manunulat lamang ako. Pramis. :)

      Mahilig po kasi ako sa humor blogs kaya enjoy ako magbasa sa blog mo.

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